Making the most of your GP Appointment

Making the most of your GP Appointment

FollowFollowFollowFollowFollow ‘I’m not seeing a doctor!’ I insisted with a look on my face that was intended to end the debate once and for all. As far as I was concerned, it was simple: I wasn’t going to the hospital, walk-in centre or GP surgery, because I couldn’t...
Why can’t I just get over my trauma

Why can’t I just get over my trauma

FollowFollowFollowFollowFollow ‘If I could just get over it, I would,’ I say, and I’m trying not to sound irritated or hurt but I’m not quite sure what emotion my face is displaying and my throat is tight and my fists are clenched and really I’d rather not be here,...
The start of my journey out of shame

The start of my journey out of shame

FollowFollowFollowFollowFollow Shame. It’s a familiar word and yet the more I think about it, the stranger it becomes. What does it mean? Where does it come from? How does it go? What is the point of it? Why does it even exist? I’d never even considered it before...
Dealing with Denial

Dealing with Denial

FollowFollowFollowFollowFollow ‘But if I accept that this is real, that this stuff really happened to me, then I don’t think I’ll be able to cope.’The therapist looks at me as I splutter out my confession. I have used denial all my life to cope with my abuse. Now, a...
Christmas is Optional

Christmas is Optional

FollowFollowFollowFollowFollow ‘Christmas is optional!’ I announce, loudly and excitedly and with an uncharacteristic degree of gusto, at the beginning of my session. We haven’t even sat down yet. Mostly sessions begin with a tense stand-off as I battle within myself...